i do not understand why god is punishing me for my faults. i am unluckt,since childhood,i have never tasted good luck despite born in a wealthy family. now i am 49 yrs old,no wife ,no kids,where is my future ,i cant not see it.i do not have career,nor i do have job at present,nor i do have money.I remained unemployed till 2004,since 2005 i started working in stock market,made a lot of money ,but fortune wheel turned against me,it seemeed everything was planned,and someone controlling it,lost my money,house,wife and each and every asset ,virtually on road,my sis gave me shelter,had to left my city.with no money,one stigma of not returning the money of uncle,which i wanted to return with interest,but god did not want this,he wanted to punish me more severe.I wanted to commit suicide,i am living life of a hell,with no pleasure in life.i had to do jobs,my employer kept my wages,though i worked hard,but never got full wages as per my talent.it also seems that whoever keeps good feelings for me,is also punished.
festivals turns to be a misfortune for me, a bad omen.i wanted to stay with one company for long ,but situation never permitted this.my first employer gave me 6000 per month,,after that i moved to other company for 20000 p.m. but this company too never paid my full salary,in fact in 7 months i got only 41500 only,average even comes below 6000,after that i joined other,there i worked 2 months,paid only 1000,what a shameless joke ,later joined another got 8000pm.here got paid ,but after 3 months,owner made it difficult for me to stay there,i had to left with no payment of one month salary,later joined another at 7700 pm,here too after 2nd month i was thrown out,just because i was honest in my work and committments,they too kept my 15 day salary.
everyday i have to visit job placement agaencies ,everytime i go there i feel snubbed,am i eligible for all this hardship.what is my fault.it seems that misfortune and i are made for each other.
it seems some super power controlling my activities,and want to make it sure that i am fully destructed.so far they ae successful in their mission.i am no where.my identity,my money,my personality,my talent ,all gone. i am living only for surviaval, not for any other purpose,family,career are now alien words for me,for me survival is the only question.
later i felt that it all happened due to displeasure of kuldevta sokha baba,i accept,but was it justified to teach a lesson to me in this way.i am also responsible for present status of my younger brother.
I started praying kuldevta,2 months back,what happened,i had to leave my job,became jobless,and seeing no future,still looking for jobs,
it is said that god exist for good,but for me it exist for my misfortune and to give trouble to me.
I am confident that i would never believe in good power of god,if i ever believe that under compulsion,before success believe in god would be out of fear.
every employer of mine kept my rightful money.i am surviving just because of help from some one. i have talent,experience but i dont have job.
i am unsuccessful and unlucky.
jab bhi mera koi kaam hone ka hota hai to bhagwan aranga laga dete hai. lagta hai .unka kkam sirf hume barbad karna hai. ek galti ki thi ,nunubabu ka paisa nsahi dekar,magar niyat doosari thi. magar bhagwan to uska saza aisa dene par tul gaye ki koi hisab nahin,mera paisa,sukh chain,shanti,ghar ,samman sab leliye ,dar dar ka bhikhari bana diye,tab bhi chain nahin hai,humara to vansh hi khatam ho gaya hai,yaha tak ki jaha meri life sudhar sakti thi,to us company ko hi band kara diya,jaha regular paisa milta tha,waha se nikal diya gaya. meri life to kutte se bhi badtar ho gayi hai. na koi umang hai,na khusi hai
aaj mere pas ghar,bibi,car ,tv ,palng,sofa,ac kuch bhi nahi hai
mere mistakes ,jisne meri zindagi barbad kar di
1-1984- not joining iipm
1990- not taking seriously bank jobs
1994- not going to spjimr
1994- refusing a job
1996- not joining a business venture by amar
2006-marriage
above never thought of future,never took life seriously.
these great mistakes has changed my life for worst.
today i am jobless ,its all due to this .not having a good life,when i think of future,i am in dark,no future looks from now,where will i go from here
my future seems bleak,present indefinite.,only hope is kuldevta.
let me see how i get help ,i m keeping my fingers crossed
every day go to mishara ji for jobs,return hopeless. its a snubbing moment for me.
5/3/2011-no improvement in condition,kuldevta sokha baba bhi mere liye bekar hai,unhone to humlogo ka vansh khatm karne ki than li hai.mein to chahta hoon life mein kisi harami ,madarchod bhagwan mein vishwas nahi karu,uehi unsabse dua bhi karta hoon,kyoki sab mere dushman hai,zindagi mein 12 mota moti mistake kiye hai.
1-1984 mein iipm mein admission nahi lekar 2-1990 mein kewal upsc ki taiyari ko lekar, 3-1994 mein naukri ka offer chor kar 5-isi saal sp jain nahi jakar6-1996 mein amar ke paas se wapas aakar 7-2004 mein bina soche smjhe share market mein enter karke 8-ghar nahi kharidna-8nunu babu ka paisaa wapas nahi karna 9-2006 mein shaadi karke 10-orissa mein rahne ka fayada nahi uthana 11-pixel guru ka naukri chorkar shanti join karna 12-shanti mein rahte hue naukri ka prayas nahi karna 13-shyma power mein final interview ke liye nahi jana 14- kailsumi mein naukri chor dena.chuki mein jise khud se chorta hoon,bhawan madarchod sab humko aur kasht deta hai,aas tak mujhe naukri nahi mili,itna pareshan hua hi ki,bardhast nahi hota..nov se sokha ka puja suru kiye ki acha hoga,magar hua wahi jo hot a aaya,naukri chut gayi,saala jajab puja karte hai,naukri chut jati hai ya zindagi aur jehannum ban jati hai,pariwar ke samne hamesha beijjat karta hai.aaj parivar mein sab khus hai ,humlog ko chorkar.lagta kaun sa aisa galti kiye hai ,jiska itna bhayankar saja mil raha hai.
ekbar madarchod ko 100 cr rupaya ho jaaye ,in madarchod sabhi devi devta ke gaand mein laat maru.pais ahone par ,wo log mera kuch nahi bigar sakta hai,mein bhagwan hoon,aisa samjhoonga. kamzoe hu islie wo log to takat dikha raha hai,paisa rahne par to wo log mera gulam rahega,kyoki paisa hi asli takat hai.isliye madarchod bhagwan sab mujhse darta hai ki iske paas paisa ho jayega to ye humlogo ko nahi gudanega.isliye mujhe aage barhne hi nahi deta hai.khakar e saala harami shiva bholenath,durga,kaali,laxmi,ganesh, ,mera dushman no 1 hai. madarchod sab mujh kamzor par zor dikhata hai,ekbaar saal a 100 cr ho jaye to inlogo ke gand mein aisa laat marunga ki sab budhi inlog ka bhutla jaayega.
ssaala jaha kaam hone wala hota hai waha madarchod sab pahle pahuch kar kaam kharab kar deta hai ,ya kaam bigar deta hai. mera definite ko indefinite mein badal deta hai
jisme kasam khata hoon ki ye karunga to yesab aisa mahaul bana deta hai ki kasam bekar ho jata hai,aaj kein date mein mein khud bhagwan hoon ,kyoki mein apna future khub janta hoon,ha mein bhagwan ka bhi bhagwan hoon.mein exact future apna janta hoon.achanak ehsas hota negative to wo ho jata hai,mera har wo kaam ho jata hai jisme meri tarakki involve nahi hai aur jisme paise aane ka koi khel nahi hai.
festivals turns to be a misfortune for me, a bad omen.i wanted to stay with one company for long ,but situation never permitted this.my first employer gave me 6000 per month,,after that i moved to other company for 20000 p.m. but this company too never paid my full salary,in fact in 7 months i got only 41500 only,average even comes below 6000,after that i joined other,there i worked 2 months,paid only 1000,what a shameless joke ,later joined another got 8000pm.here got paid ,but after 3 months,owner made it difficult for me to stay there,i had to left with no payment of one month salary,later joined another at 7700 pm,here too after 2nd month i was thrown out,just because i was honest in my work and committments,they too kept my 15 day salary.
everyday i have to visit job placement agaencies ,everytime i go there i feel snubbed,am i eligible for all this hardship.what is my fault.it seems that misfortune and i are made for each other.
it seems some super power controlling my activities,and want to make it sure that i am fully destructed.so far they ae successful in their mission.i am no where.my identity,my money,my personality,my talent ,all gone. i am living only for surviaval, not for any other purpose,family,career are now alien words for me,for me survival is the only question.
later i felt that it all happened due to displeasure of kuldevta sokha baba,i accept,but was it justified to teach a lesson to me in this way.i am also responsible for present status of my younger brother.
I started praying kuldevta,2 months back,what happened,i had to leave my job,became jobless,and seeing no future,still looking for jobs,
it is said that god exist for good,but for me it exist for my misfortune and to give trouble to me.
I am confident that i would never believe in good power of god,if i ever believe that under compulsion,before success believe in god would be out of fear.
every employer of mine kept my rightful money.i am surviving just because of help from some one. i have talent,experience but i dont have job.
i am unsuccessful and unlucky.
jab bhi mera koi kaam hone ka hota hai to bhagwan aranga laga dete hai. lagta hai .unka kkam sirf hume barbad karna hai. ek galti ki thi ,nunubabu ka paisa nsahi dekar,magar niyat doosari thi. magar bhagwan to uska saza aisa dene par tul gaye ki koi hisab nahin,mera paisa,sukh chain,shanti,ghar ,samman sab leliye ,dar dar ka bhikhari bana diye,tab bhi chain nahin hai,humara to vansh hi khatam ho gaya hai,yaha tak ki jaha meri life sudhar sakti thi,to us company ko hi band kara diya,jaha regular paisa milta tha,waha se nikal diya gaya. meri life to kutte se bhi badtar ho gayi hai. na koi umang hai,na khusi hai
aaj mere pas ghar,bibi,car ,tv ,palng,sofa,ac kuch bhi nahi hai
mere mistakes ,jisne meri zindagi barbad kar di
1-1984- not joining iipm
1990- not taking seriously bank jobs
1994- not going to spjimr
1994- refusing a job
1996- not joining a business venture by amar
2006-marriage
above never thought of future,never took life seriously.
these great mistakes has changed my life for worst.
today i am jobless ,its all due to this .not having a good life,when i think of future,i am in dark,no future looks from now,where will i go from here
my future seems bleak,present indefinite.,only hope is kuldevta.
let me see how i get help ,i m keeping my fingers crossed
every day go to mishara ji for jobs,return hopeless. its a snubbing moment for me.
5/3/2011-no improvement in condition,kuldevta sokha baba bhi mere liye bekar hai,unhone to humlogo ka vansh khatm karne ki than li hai.mein to chahta hoon life mein kisi harami ,madarchod bhagwan mein vishwas nahi karu,uehi unsabse dua bhi karta hoon,kyoki sab mere dushman hai,zindagi mein 12 mota moti mistake kiye hai.
1-1984 mein iipm mein admission nahi lekar 2-1990 mein kewal upsc ki taiyari ko lekar, 3-1994 mein naukri ka offer chor kar 5-isi saal sp jain nahi jakar6-1996 mein amar ke paas se wapas aakar 7-2004 mein bina soche smjhe share market mein enter karke 8-ghar nahi kharidna-8nunu babu ka paisaa wapas nahi karna 9-2006 mein shaadi karke 10-orissa mein rahne ka fayada nahi uthana 11-pixel guru ka naukri chorkar shanti join karna 12-shanti mein rahte hue naukri ka prayas nahi karna 13-shyma power mein final interview ke liye nahi jana 14- kailsumi mein naukri chor dena.chuki mein jise khud se chorta hoon,bhawan madarchod sab humko aur kasht deta hai,aas tak mujhe naukri nahi mili,itna pareshan hua hi ki,bardhast nahi hota..nov se sokha ka puja suru kiye ki acha hoga,magar hua wahi jo hot a aaya,naukri chut gayi,saala jajab puja karte hai,naukri chut jati hai ya zindagi aur jehannum ban jati hai,pariwar ke samne hamesha beijjat karta hai.aaj parivar mein sab khus hai ,humlog ko chorkar.lagta kaun sa aisa galti kiye hai ,jiska itna bhayankar saja mil raha hai.
ekbar madarchod ko 100 cr rupaya ho jaaye ,in madarchod sabhi devi devta ke gaand mein laat maru.pais ahone par ,wo log mera kuch nahi bigar sakta hai,mein bhagwan hoon,aisa samjhoonga. kamzoe hu islie wo log to takat dikha raha hai,paisa rahne par to wo log mera gulam rahega,kyoki paisa hi asli takat hai.isliye madarchod bhagwan sab mujhse darta hai ki iske paas paisa ho jayega to ye humlogo ko nahi gudanega.isliye mujhe aage barhne hi nahi deta hai.khakar e saala harami shiva bholenath,durga,kaali,laxmi,ganesh, ,mera dushman no 1 hai. madarchod sab mujh kamzor par zor dikhata hai,ekbaar saal a 100 cr ho jaye to inlogo ke gand mein aisa laat marunga ki sab budhi inlog ka bhutla jaayega.
ssaala jaha kaam hone wala hota hai waha madarchod sab pahle pahuch kar kaam kharab kar deta hai ,ya kaam bigar deta hai. mera definite ko indefinite mein badal deta hai
jisme kasam khata hoon ki ye karunga to yesab aisa mahaul bana deta hai ki kasam bekar ho jata hai,aaj kein date mein mein khud bhagwan hoon ,kyoki mein apna future khub janta hoon,ha mein bhagwan ka bhi bhagwan hoon.mein exact future apna janta hoon.achanak ehsas hota negative to wo ho jata hai,mera har wo kaam ho jata hai jisme meri tarakki involve nahi hai aur jisme paise aane ka koi khel nahi hai.
